I had breakfast alone this morning. I went back to Lucille’s, the delicious creole restaurant, and sat there reading the paper and eating my eggs. Nobody talked to me except the waitress. It was quiet. There were no volunteers to train, no numbers to report, no fires to put out. I haven’t sat by myself quietly like that for a month. I didn’t quite know what to do with myself.
Last night, after a bizarrely slow Election Day with barely a hiccup at the polling stations, a bunch of us gathered at a Hawaiian-themed sports bar to watch the returns come in. I have no idea how we ended up there – the entire night had a first-month-of-college feel to it, a lemming-mentality. First the networks called NH quickly, giving Jeanne Shaheen her Senate seat. The quickness of the call was a good omen since McCain had put resources into trying to pick the state off. Then PA fell for Obama, then Ohio, and we knew we were headed for the win. Someone ordered shots and we stepped outside into the unseasonably warm night to smoke the victory cigarillos I had covertly bought earlier in the day. It was a mix of people I have come to be close friends with and some I don’t care for at all, but we all had the same bond of time and energy committed. It’s a bizarre feeling, to have worked so hard for something, to have been all-consumed, and then to celebrate. Lacking a central gathering place like Times Square, we headed for the Democratic Party’s gala at the Marriott, catching the tail end of Markey’s victory speech. Some of my best volunteers were there and we celebrated, standing on chairs, drinking our beers, and shouting across the convention room. From there my recollections of the night become fuzzy. Mike and I were interviewed by some radio station. Rooms were procured upstairs and the party spilled up into the hotel, but it felt strangely like an after-prom party and around 1:30 I headed home, spent.
It’s strange for this to be over. I can honestly say that, however selfless this sacrifice may have seemed, there were more basic reasons for me to do this. I needed to get out of NY. My job is stultifying. And I wanted Obama to win. Yet I have still received so many texts, emails, and calls from my friends – all messages of sincere thanks – that it overwhelms me. When the networks called the election for Obama, I called my parents and cried. I haven’t worked this hard for something in a long time, if ever. And I’m proud. Proud to have won, proud to have devoted myself so thoroughly to something so challenging and new, but mostly proud to have put myself to good use. My job has not given me that satisfaction in at least a year, and although I knew I felt that way on some level, I underestimated how invigorating and emotional it would make me.
I have made some wonderful friends on this trip – friends that I intend to keep: Mike, Geetha, Betty. I intend to make Betty my mentor whether she likes it or not. I have given standing orders to Mike that he should call me so I can be a ringer for the next election he works on, showing up with two weeks to go. I couldn’t do it for a living, I don’t think, but it is a great vacation in its own way.
My sister texted me this morning. She wrote, simply, “yes we can.” And I, in response, corrected her. “Yes we DID.”
Yes we did.

